"Adam, Where Are You?"
Paul L. Garlington
All those who have wholeheartedly embraced the Alpha and Omega Project will discover to their eternal joy that they have embarked on a journey of no distance, returning to a place they have never left, becoming what they already are, acquiring what they never lost. On this journey, the most important tool that the would-be pilgrim could ever use is the Self-Interrogation Process. Furthermore, on this path, our feelings, yes even our weird, and often “sinful” ones, will prove to be our greatest allies.

There is no process that facilitates the realization of the joy of His way like the method of self-interrogation. “Where are you?” was the question posed to Adam after he had eaten of the forbidden fruit (i.e., belief in two powers), discovered that he was naked (i.e., stripped of the consciousness of divine BEING being the self that I am), feeling guilt, shame and fear. Adam’s dualistic mindset inevitably resulted in an unavoidable feeling of distance from God, good. In such a state, Adam is feeling an oppressive sense of deservedness of pain, suffering and punishment. The divine process of restoration is initiated by specific interrogatives, designed to assist the interviewee in the process of locating where he or she has succumbed to the belief in two powers.

The Self-Interrogation Process is analogous to the Socratic Method whereby Socrates skillfully employed questions to develop a latent (i.e., present, but not visible, apparent or realized) idea in the mind of his pupil. Socrates also employed questions to effectively disarm all would-be opponents to the truth that he expounded, by not only bringing them, through questions, to concede the truths being declared, but moreover, causing them to admit, sometimes in humiliation, that they knew the truth all the time. Or, as the Apostle Paul declared centuries after Socrates, the truth of God is suppressed in unrighteousness. Socrates saw himself as a mid-wife utilizing the questioning process to assist the individual in bringing to birth the knowledge of the truth that lay dormant within him.

Haven’t we all had the experience, at least once in our life, of seeking to assist someone in finding some lost item? Do you remember how you would question the individual whom you were assisting in order to pin-point the possible location of the missing object? You see, as the interrogator, you assumed that the clues to the whereabouts of the lost item existed within the seeker. In like manner, when you feel a bit disoriented on this journey, it is highly recommended that you use the process of self-interrogation to facilitate your speedy recovery. This can be done very effectively through self-reflection or, when necessary, through the assistance of a Heartmate. However, should you seek out the help of a Heartmate, always find someone who is not presently a part of your problem. Or to put it another way, when the patients are running the asylum, the situation is hopeless.

What are the indicators that one should immediately commence the Self-Interrogation Process? If you are contemplating the advantages of an automatic rifle as an immediate solution to a very aggravating situation, you just might be overdue. If you are seeing demons and adversaries coming out of the woodwork, you could also be a candidate. If your first response to the slightest glance in your direction is, “WHAT?”, it just might be time for you to start asking yourself some questions. If you are sounding like a clacking lackey so that even your children are asking you if you are okay, you just might want to begin the process. Should you feel that you are going down like the Titanic and you are obsessing about who you can take down with you, whether they want to go or not, it is indeed time to say, “Adam, where are you?” Please bear with me in my humor. If however you were thinking, “Oh, you were trying to be funny?”, then don’t even try to fly solo--You need a Heartmate right now!!!

Scripture says, “Let us examine and probe our ways, and let us return to the Lord.” (Lam 3:40) The psalmist says, “Where can I go from Thy Spirit? Or where can I flee from Thy presence?” (Ps 139:7) Since we have established that God, good is present everywhere and absent nowhere, is there any reason why anyone should be feeling guilt, shame, fear and lack of anything when we live and move and have our being in an infinite ocean of good? To this end, the psalmist says, “Search me, O God, and know my heart (Is it divided or single?); try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful way in me (belief in duality), and lead me (through the Self-Interrogation Process) in the everlasting way.” (Ps 139:23,24) The prophet Ezekiel bears witness to his truth when he says, “Because he considered and turned away from all his transgressions (rejection of the truth that God, good is all there is) which he had committed, he shall surely live (abundant, fulfilled life); he shall not die.” (Ex 18:28) Hence the request, “Examine me, O Lord, and try me; test my mind and my heart (i.e., reveal all double-mindedness),” is a non-defensive acceptance that the end result of the Self-Interrogation Process is always good. (Ps 26:2)

Whether we commence the Self-Interrogation Process through self-reflection or through the assistance of an authentic Heartmate, the process assumes that the answer is within us. This process can only be effective when the interrogator assumes that the interviewee, in spite of all protestations to the contrary, in fact knows the answers to the questions being asked. Remember, denial is not a river in Egypt. The Heartmate, functioning as a mid-wife, provides a very patient, loving, albeit, faithful witness to the truth, and assists the seeking heart in bringing to birth the desired end result.

“Feelings, Nothing More Than Feelings.”

Once one is committed to the Alpha and Omega Project, by living as if his/her “what ifs” are true, radical changes will occur in ones response to feelings. Remember, our greatest allies on this journey will always be our feelings. Having entered the kingdom by becoming like a little child, we are once again experiencing ourselves in relationship to persons, places, things and events on a feeling level. Because the whole earth is filled with His glory, hence it’s all good, we are now back in touch with our feelings in a context that is free of all judgments. We have been erroneously taught, oftentimes with great intimidation, to never trust our feelings. While this may be sincere counsel, it is sincerely wrong. It is not our feelings that betray us, but our judgments about them. For what it’s worth, my counsel to you is: Trust your feelings; just don’t trust your right/wrong judgments about your feelings. From this vantage point, every project participant must ask the question as many times a day as necessary, “What if I actually lived my life as if my feelings, yes even my so-called negative feelings, are in fact messengers of good?” Therefore, when Isaiah says, “And I will lead the blind by a way they do not know, in paths they do not know I will guide them. I will make darkness into light before them and rugged places into plains. These are the things I will do, and I will not leave them undone,” he further assures us that our, “Ears will hear a word behind [us], ‘This is the way, walk in it,’ whenever [we] turn to the right or to the left.” (Is 42:1; 30:21) Whenever we remove all judgments from our feelings and experience them with the innocence of a child, we discover a renewed sense of clarity and perspective. In other words, all feelings when experienced without judgment leave behind a residue of valuable insight that makes our way prosperous.

Because we are totally committed to the truth that it is all good, we gladly embrace our so-called negative emotions as messengers of good in disguise. So, for example, if I find myself suddenly seized by intense feelings of jealousy, I immediately lean into the experience with a total absence of resistance. Why? All feelings of jealousy imply that we believe someone possesses something that we lack. However, if the life that God is, being whole, complete, lacking in nothing, is indeed present as the life that I am, then what, pray tell, is it that I could possibly be lacking? Moreover, this infinitely whole and perfect life is an eternal and unchangeable reality because God cannot deny Himself. Hence, the person, place, thing or event that triggers feelings of jealousy serves as a valuable ally on the journey by exposing those areas where I am still denying the glorious truth that divine life is my present reality, lacking in nothing. Having removed all judgments about my feelings of jealousy, I have transformed it from one of the seven deadly sins into a treasured friend and guide on the journey of no distance. Moreover, inasmuch as all feelings are simply energy impulses, the removal of the judgments always leaves us feeling energized and highly motivated in our daily lives.

In like manner, the highly condemned feelings of greed must now be reinterpreted in the light where everything that becomes visible is light. Since everything that exists is real, and everything real exists, the only thing for which we can be greedy is reality. Since reality is all good, then greed is good.

It is imperative that we understand the distinction between judging feelings and acting on those judgments as opposed to experiencing all feelings like a child who does not know good or evil. When we judge our feelings, we have abandoned the Alpha and Omega Project with a vengeance. Can you see it? Since God, good is all there is, there is only one valid judgment that can be made--IT’S ALL GOOD! Hence, even fear, when judged as good, becomes a valuable ally in that it always exposes the lies that we have embraced about the truth. Do you see it? What if, like a child, I leaned immediately into all of my feelings as if it is all good? I assure you that there is no greater high that one can experience than to lean immediately into one’s feelings, under girded with the conviction, that there is nothing going on but good.

Begin With God

You must first establish what is, before you can know what is not. The Alpha and Omega Project assumes that God Is; that God, good is ONE, infinite, all, all there is; and that these are givens that are beyond the realm of debate. Therefore, the Self-Interrogation Process begins with, “Be still and know that I am God.” Because God is, and is all there is, where else can we begin the Self-Interrogation Process? Is it logical to ask questions about what is not? Therefore, even the process of embracing our so-called negative feelings without judgment assists us in establishing what we know about God. Since God, life, mind, being is the self that I am, the end result of the Self-Interrogation Process is self-knowledge. The commandment to love God with all of our heart, soul, mind and strength becomes a, “Lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path,” as we use this process to reorient ourselves.

Therefore, whenever your peace is disturbed, commence the process of self-interrogation with, “Adam, where are you?”


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